[quietly, painfully dragged out -- and he is only even managing to say this because of his discussion with Suibian, and because of a certainty he still remembers even though its foundations are currently gone -- ]

You do not know what I reacted to. What was in your control.

You are eager to take a burden you have rejected the details of.

What you say in anger is still said.

What you say in different circumstances, is still said.