[this is dangerous. this is dangerous. he should not have opened this route of conversation.]

Recall Phoenix Mountain.

[repeating this particular transgression to both of them causes no more damage, he supposes, than it already has. he cannot make himself say, I have loved you, or something like it, since you climbed a wall in front of we when we were fifteen; I have known I have loved you since we fought a Divine Beast when we were seventeen; I have never stopped.]