[it might take him a while to get there. but for now it is a tentative equilibrium here, where he is content to be content so long as Lan Wangji is. he's even happy, sprawled in his arms at that moment, selfishly keeping him away from his comfortable room and nice bed.

he doesn't fall asleep. he does let himself drift as he runs his hand through Lan Wangji's silky soft hair]