"Both of us probably drank too much" and were both upset. My tolerance is better than yours, so I should have been more mindful. If you really think that's not what happened then I'll believe you. But I don't know what else to think.
[this is dangerous. this is dangerous. he should not have opened this route of conversation.]
Recall Phoenix Mountain.
[repeating this particular transgression to both of them causes no more damage, he supposes, than it already has. he cannot make himself say, I have loved you, or something like it, since you climbed a wall in front of we when we were fifteen; I have known I have loved you since we fought a Divine Beast when we were seventeen; I have never stopped.]
if Wei Wuxian misconstrues this he is just going to possibly pitch himself off the side of the island and let the magic winds blow him around for a while]
[he has to attempt to re-contextualize every interaction they've had since that kiss on Phoenix Mountain and that is very difficult when he previously assumed Lan Wangji wanted to lock him up or kill him.]
[there is clear distress in his voice; a sort of panic clawing at him when faced with this admission, placed up next to their many years of arguing and fighting]
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Are you able to make me do what I do not wish to do?
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I don't know. You're stubborn when you're drunk, I won't deny that. But I haven't tried to push you when you're drunk either.
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I do not know if you were.
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[he misheard. he must be really tired.]
Can you repeat that?
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[he can certainly offer an educated guess, but that might lead to more misunderstandings]
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Mm.
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[please Wei Ying we have fucked very enthusiastically in your relatively immediate memory]
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[in a tone that says here and home are Different, Obviously]
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How long is a long time?
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Hanguang-Jun. Er-gege. I don't understand what you're saying.
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Recall Phoenix Mountain.
[repeating this particular transgression to both of them causes no more damage, he supposes, than it already has. he cannot make himself say, I have loved you, or something like it, since you climbed a wall in front of we when we were fifteen; I have known I have loved you since we fought a Divine Beast when we were seventeen; I have never stopped.]
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Which part about it? I don't know what this has to do with my question.
[he does attempt to think back, but he's also busy trying to work out Lan Wangji's words]
Has it...been since then?
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[hmm what]
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if Wei Wuxian misconstrues this he is just going to possibly pitch himself off the side of the island and let the magic winds blow him around for a while]
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[he has to attempt to re-contextualize every interaction they've had since that kiss on Phoenix Mountain and that is very difficult when he previously assumed Lan Wangji wanted to lock him up or kill him.]
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Before then.
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[there is clear distress in his voice; a sort of panic clawing at him when faced with this admission, placed up next to their many years of arguing and fighting]
But you hated me! We were always fighting!
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