popdrop: ic inbox

[weiyingdown]

Sanren 散人
20s / M

白日依山尽，黄河入海流。欲穷千里目，更上一层楼。☀

Let's be friends ♥

<span style="font-family:century gothic,helvetica,arial,sans-serif;"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ScI5Hsw.png" style="height:20px;margin:0 5px -4px 0;"><b style="color:#e75480;">YOUR NAME</b> matched with you!</span> MATCH

<lj-raw><span style="font-family:century gothic,helvetica,arial,sans-serif;"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/P3gZl1b.png" style="height:20px;margin:0 5px -4px 0;"> <b style="color:#0225d7;">YOUR NAME</b> sent you a message! <blockquote style="border-left:5px solid #ddd;padding:0 0 0 10px;"> Message_content </blockquote></span></lj-raw> MESSAGE

<span style="font-family:century gothic,helvetica,arial,sans-serif;"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/w2B4FYG.png" style="height:20px;margin:0 5px -4px 0;"><b style="color:#041181;">YOUR NAME</b> sent you a flirt!</span> FLIRT

Art Source [Catch-all post for ic inbox, any potential overflow from posts, and nsfw]

Comments

[one_note]

He had...assisted previously. It was complex.

He was angered by Jiang Wanyin's treatment of you. The truth of your core came out. Jiang Wanyin allowed us to leave.

[weiyingdown]

Wen Ning...I told him so many times not to say it.

[he sounds more tired than angry]

That wasn't all, was it?

[one_note]

He requested I not tell you, when you woke. But he spared you further injury.

[a pause, weighing his words]

From there, we went to Yunping by boat.

[weiyingdown]

[hesitates]

Gege made it sound like you were upset by what happened in Yunping.

[one_note]

Mm.

I do not remember much of Yunping.

[weiyingdown]

[that does make him peek at his face]

You don't remember, but it upset you?

[one_note]

[he doesn't look happy, or even the steady baseline of his normal neutral blankness...if you know how to read his face very well. it's in the faint drawn tightness around his eyes and the tired tilt of his head.]

At the inn, we took a meal. I agreed to drink with you once more.

We woke abed together. You were upset.

[a faint hesitation -- then, scrupulous]

So was I.

/2

[weiyingdown]

[he's not exhausted, but he is tired after the last few days; so it can't be helped that his mind is especially sluggish as it tries to piece together what Lan Wangji's expression and words mean]

But I usually sleep in your--

[weiyingdown]

[and then what abed really means sinks in and he goes from bemused to shocked to distressed in a matter of seconds]

I--what did we--are you okay?

[one_note]

I am all right.

But I do not know what I did.

You said, "do not take it too seriously." And did not wish to be touched.

Your counterpart said...to wait until I remembered resolution. I do not know if you feel the same.

[weiyingdown]

L-let me think for a minute.

[takes a few deep breaths to calm his heart. that was almost as much of a shock as the golden core but in a completely different way]

I said...not to take it seriously. Did I say anything else?

[one_note]

"I'll do it on my own. You don't have to touch me."

"Both of us probably drank too much tonight. My apologies. You don't have to feel too apologetic either. It's normal for men to be like this sometimes. Please don't take it too seriously."

[...and much softer, like it's physically hard for him to say it, even to a degree past how hard it is for him to speak at length]

You also thanked me and apologized.

[weiyingdown]

[he trusts Lan Wangji's memory more than his own, so he doesn't doubt that the words are exact. he considers the situation, why he would say those exact words, and feels his stomach churn]

I took advantage.

[one_note]

That is not likely.

[weiyingdown]

If we were both upset, and you were drunk...

[exhales]

And from what I said, that's what it sounds like to me.

[one_note]

[the sky is so nice tonight, and much safer to look at than Wei Wuxian's face]

You could not take advantage of me.

[weiyingdown]

"Both of us probably drank too much" and were both upset. My tolerance is better than yours, so I should have been more mindful. If you really think that's not what happened then I'll believe you. But I don't know what else to think.

[one_note]

When I am drunk.

Are you able to make me do what I do not wish to do?

[weiyingdown]

[he has exactly one experience with Lan Wangji from within Popdrop and it was not a huge sample size; he shrugs, honest]

I don't know. You're stubborn when you're drunk, I won't deny that. But I haven't tried to push you when you're drunk either.

[one_note]

I believe I would have been willing.

I do not know if you were.

[weiyingdown]

. . . ?

[he misheard. he must be really tired.]

Can you repeat that?

[one_note]

I would have been willing.

[weiyingdown]

But you were upset.

[one_note]

You did not seem to be.

[weiyingdown]

I don't know what I was thinking at the time.

[he can certainly offer an educated guess, but that might lead to more misunderstandings]